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Me and I - Letter From a Dead Man (Retribution)

Me and I - Retribution
...Apologies are in place. 
Every man is above mistakes, errors are bound to come... Heed the voice of caution...

#ART... And I reached the edge of wisdom and found nothing except my foolishness. 
It's not enough to be lucky, count it an opportunity to be blessed, an opportunity... Nothing else...
I thought I was living, yet everyday I looked at the mirror and saw a ghost.
I thought I could run past my fears but what is running without strength? 
My fear was the very thing driving me. I was scared, scared of being left behind, scared of living in penury, scared of demons I didn't even believe in, scared of being called small, scared of the fact that I was always scared. 
Look where I stand today...
I wanted, was always wanting, oh how it killed me slowly... 
How it ate deep and deep till there was nothing left within the walls of my heart to even feel the pain of emptiness. 
I hurt friends, I hurt family, I hurt strangers, I hurt people who only hoped in me... 
How do you break something you cannot touch. Promises are always broken right? 
These people I hurt, I did ONLY because they trusted me, because they believed in me, because thought they knew me.

I have no regrets in my life yet, I've lost these people, that's something to remember... A regret. 
It keeps eating me deep, I have no rest and no matter how hard I try, I still have no peace...
I apologize... Apologize for hurting you, for throwing all that trust away, for taking your trust for granted, for the pain I know I'll never have an idea of its magnitude that I brought... 
I'm sorry for taking you for granted, for compromising, I'm sorry for all this, I'm sorry for being sorry... For being who I am, I'm truly, deeply sorry. 
I could say this is coming from my heart but I don't even have a heart anymore... 
I feel empty everytime I stare into an empty space, with tears washing down my face, reminiscing on all I've done... All that I am now.
Whatever must have made me think my actions right, I take back and accept that I am only foolish... 
I say am because this guilt eats me...
Please accept my apology, this is all that's left of my heart. I am sorry, I truly am.

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